my friend vino

two nights without a drink. this is progress, right? I am up at least ten pounds. Jeans getting tight, and craving sugar and carbs and eating everything in sight, for weeks now. I don’t quite understand the momentum behind a Continue reading my friend vino

a daily dose of God

The last few nights have been emotionally difficult. It is hard to be alone when I am married. We celebrated our one month anniversary with a phone call. Is this what I signed up for? Playing house on the weekends Continue reading a daily dose of God

just breathe

Session with my therapist today, who had two questions: What would it take to have the courage to face my anxiety without resorting to dysfunctional coping behaviors? What is my plan if my needs cannot be met in my new life? Continue reading just breathe

the domesticity of pie

Today another meeting with my counselor.  Today we talked about how much I don’t like endings. Why don’t you like endings? she asked. Because endings are abandonment, and I will never abandon anything or anyone who has a glimmer of Continue reading the domesticity of pie

another week closer to 50

I have been tracking my mood 1-100 and my level of anxiety 1-10 and, surprisingly, over the last 30 days, there has been a vast improvement.  I do not know what I am doing differently.  Is it a physical thing, Continue reading another week closer to 50