It was a really bad day for starting something in one room and walking into another room, and starting something else and walking into another room, and starting something else, then walking back to the first room and noticing that Continue reading A daily cup with Mrs. JB
Somewhere in the last 24 hours I have fallen into the dark pit of nerve frazzled shakiness. Today I cannot stand to live in my skin. My hands are shaking, body trembling. Mind racing and yet feeling foggy at the Continue reading losing my mind
This morning I stepped on the scale. 115 pounds. ugghhh…. I can feel it in my body, see it in the way my clothes are fitting. Feeling short of breath at the top of the third flight of stairs, still Continue reading pudge
Session with my therapist today, who had two questions: What would it take to have the courage to face my anxiety without resorting to dysfunctional coping behaviors? What is my plan if my needs cannot be met in my new life? Continue reading just breathe
If you have MTHFR you shouldn’t drink. Period. I haven’t had a drink since Friday night, except for a glass of sacramental wine on Sunday. I know, I know… It’s only Tuesday, and this morning my hands were shaking when Continue reading on the subject of wine
I feel grumpy today. Woke up in brain fog, dehydrated and recognizing that toxic feeling of gluten and sugar and hangover. In my office the system keeps hanging up on me and I have accomplished nothing. Getting my meds refilled Continue reading where did my morning go?
Today another meeting with my counselor. Today we talked about how much I don’t like endings. Why don’t you like endings? she asked. Because endings are abandonment, and I will never abandon anything or anyone who has a glimmer of Continue reading the domesticity of pie
This week has been a bunch of up and down. I am so very happy, yet everything and nothing has changed. The ring on my finger catches my attention and I am reminded that I am married…. How strange it Continue reading Entering a New Reality
JB is staying at my house for a few days because he has training for work in Salt Lake. We watched the Bridges of Madison County last night, and was reminded that with every choice, there are lost opportunities. Experiences Continue reading happy tired
I woke up this morning feeling indignation at the whole of last year, and that I am deemed so disposable and inadequate. Started feeling depressed, then stopped. Seething rage welled up. I need this job, need the benefits and the way my Continue reading the road to perfection is full of rage
Guess what! I didn’t get my walks in this week, or my meds every day. Didn’t stay caught up with work. Been feeling pretty depressed and sad about life in general and being single and absolutely no time to do Continue reading the vultures of failure are circling
My brain has wandered away, totally and completely. The congested ick that invaded by body on January 7 is still hanging around. Or perhaps it is my diet. My gluten free, sugar free month has been full of gluten and Continue reading confessions of a closet bagel addict
My name is Tetonia and I am an addict. My love of chocolate has taken over again. Last night I ate a huge pile of semi sweet chocolate, followed by a bowl of sugar snap peas, sat up wandering around Continue reading where there is chocolate you will find me
I took a couple of days off from DC and spent Thursday and Friday in frustrating unfocused brain fog, unable to get much done, and feeling the mounting pressure of deadlines. I again remind myself that my food choices have Continue reading paint me a picture of the future
It is December and I want it to feel like something wonderful and it doesn’t, it is flat and quiet. It is up to me to do something about it and I don’t seem to be able to drag myself Continue reading and the next day….